Oh, to go back and erase all the years I’ve muddled through life with brain fog and fatigue.
Honestly, all this time, all these years I’ve pushed my mind with much caffeine, random slogging (aka “slooow jogging”), and oodles of vitamins just to focus.
And this one super-de-dooper, non-invasive procedure cleared my brain and reduced my upper body swolleness.
So now I must confess how incredibly stubborn that I am.
I orginally didn’t want this procedure.
As soon as I learned my doctors had stumbled upon another problem with my body and there was a chance it would improve the quality of my life, I internally plugged my ears and performed a silent protest.
No. More. Needles. Would. Touch. My. Body.
That is, if I could help it.
And do you want to know the sad fact? My husband, an incredibly intelligent man, kept prompting these docs to dig further, run more tests to find out why my upper body looked like the Stay Puft Marshmellow (Wo-)Man. Yet, every time my hubby mentioned I should just see someone who specializes in Superior Vena Cava Syndrome, I internally recoiled.
My doctors had given me lasix to reduce the fluid, I kept reminding myself, and I knew in a year or two my body would regrow veins to compensate for my main blocked one.
Ugh. Someone kick me.
Jason was right.
(Do you people know how hard it is to admit this?) 😉
The only wisdom I can share with you today is that sometimes surrendering (letting go of the fight your determined to overpower) is the wisest choice, especially when you’re seeking the Father for guidance.
The best part, though? I asked you to pray that all would go well, and it did.
I asked for prayer that this new stent would reduce my upper body puffiness, and it did.
I asked for this to increase my oxygen, and it did. I haven’t thought this clearly in years.
So thank you for lifting me up to the Father, for sending me precious, precious emails and lengthy comments to encourage me, and for helping me walk through this journey. This meant so much!
Now I want to return the favor. Do you have a prayer request? If so, I promise if you email me or better yet, if you publically comment (you can do so anonymously), I’ll pray for you regularly…and I know if your prayer is public, this community will too.
“Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven” (Matthew 18:19).
“Pray without ceasing” (1 Thessalonians 5:17).