Don’t want to write any longer.
The manuscript deadline is in 10 days.
Distractions surround me: evicting tenants, renovating a trashed rental, setting appointments for potential new renters, and finding time to love on my babies.
It’s enough to make me want to pitch everything.
To hit delete and run outside to play, because I feel I have nothing else to give. Scooped raw internally without an ounce of insight left.
Today I opened an old InTouch devotional to find peace, and wouldn’t you know, the suggested verses hit me like a spirit-filled wave.
My son, if you accept my words
and store up my commands within you,
2 turning your ear to wisdom
and applying your heart to understanding—
3 indeed, if you call out for insight
and cry aloud for understanding,
4 and if you look for it as for silver
and search for it as for hidden treasure,
5 then you will understand the fear of the Lord
and find the knowledge of God.
6 For the Lord gives wisdom;
from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
7 He holds success in store for the upright,
he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
8 for he guards the course of the just
and protects the way of his faithful ones.
9 Then you will understand what is right and just
and fair—every good path.
10 For wisdom will enter your heart,
and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.
I cried for understanding this morning. Lord knows I need it. But God keeps reminding me this book isn’t about me, but what He wants to accomplish through me. My ways are rarely His ways. You’d think I’d of figured that out by now.
I would appreciate some prayers, or a swift kick in the backside. Either works.
Prayers for a renewed sense of strength and His wisdom to fill my mind, for quiet moments, for the right attitude, for the simple reason that God deserves the glory, and my silly sacrifice of time is the least I can do for all the miracles He’s allowed in my life.
Just curious. Is anyone else feeling the need for understanding in their situation? I’d be happy to pray for you too.
Or offer a swift kick.